Wednesday, June 30, 2010

The Musician in Me

Recently I was given specific instruction on what I need to be doing in my life.  This wasn't just someone telling me what to do, it came from a trusted source. THE source I go to for guidance and direction. Since this instruction was given I've decided it's time to learn how to play the guitar. I've always wanted to but never had the time or the drive. Now I have both and I'm excited. I traded my brother my electronic keyboard for his old acoustic. Now if I only knew how to play it.

Tuesday, June 22, 2010

Marry Me

There's this song by Train that I've discovered and I wanted to share it with you. It's simple, but I love the words. No this isn't linked to any relationship, but it is sort of my manifestation of the love I am welcoming into my life. I've italicized words that speak to me. The song in playing on my playlist so turn up your volume, close your eyes and enjoy...

Forever can never be long enough for me
To feel like I've had long enough with you
Forget the world now, we won't let them see
But there's one thing left to do

Now that the weight has lifted
Love has surely shifted my way

Marry me today and every day
Marry me if I ever get the nerve to say hello in this cafe
Say you will, say you will

Together can never be close enough for me
To feel like I am close enough to you
You wear white and I'll ware out the words I love you
And you're beautiful

Now that the wait is over
And love has finally shown her my way

Marry me today and every day
Marry me if I ever get the nerve to say hello in this cafe
Say you will, say you will

Promise me you'll alway be happy by my side
I promise to sing to you when all the music dies

Marry me today and every day
Marry me if I ever get the nerve to say hello in this cafe
Say you will, say you will

♥ Melissa

Wednesday, June 16, 2010

Things As They Really Are

In some ways I live a very disconnected life. Although I see my family often, almost all of my friends are "virtual", meaning that our relationship is exclusively online. Sure, at one point we were friends in "real life", but now our friendship consists of emails, wall posts and status updates. It's a great way to keep in touch with the masses, don't get me wrong. But I'll admit, part of me longs for that human connection. It's something easily lost in today's electronic society.

Over the last year since I've been dating online I've recognized how easy and yet how difficult it is to actually meet and get to know someone exclusively on line. We read someones profile and in a matter of minutes asses if they're the right one for us or not. We may easily connect online, but due to time, distance and the balancing of priorities it's difficult to find/make the time actually BE in a relationship. Sure, there's usually a picture and a paragraph to describe the person, but it will always fall short to the magnificence that is that human being. I find myself doing it all the time and know it's been done to me a million times as well.

On my profile I'm 5' 9" brunette with sometimes straight, sometimes wavy hair who likes conversation, discussing politics, American Idol and camping.  But what those people don't see is the way I listen when they speak. Or the way I sing like a rock star in the car when I'm driving alone. They don't see me struggeling to feel like an adequate parent and how most days I'm elated if I get my bed made.  There not amazing or unique things, but they are things that are uniquely me. My profile or my facebook page could never show you the human being I am the way being with me will.

There's a tinge of sadness when I think of all the great people and moments I'm missing everyday. But I also remember some of the amazing moments I've had- like when I met Art at the McDonald's play land and we talked for over an hour. The time I met Holly on the plane to Vegas and we talked the entire flight. (We're still facebook friends to this day!) Or meeting Diane at Calyco training when we instantly clicked and became friends on day one. So many great moments are made when the spirit and body of two people are there to experience it together.

If you get a minute to yourself, check out this article by Elder Bednar. Whether you're LDS or not, it's a great reminder of the importance of being present in your relationships.

Love to you all!